1. Given unlimited materials and time constraints, what would your dream knitting project be? What is your favourite project to date?

I am working on a sweater that is pieced together that is a dream to knit, but I think my dream project would be anything on this page Goddess KnitsThe designer is incredible, her dracula's shawl is beautiful, as are all of them! I would knit everything she has to sell, they are large beautiful and lacy, and take forever and a day to knit.

2. What drew you to your current career? What do you love about it, what do you hate? (My former room-mate Bytownboy is in the same field...I went to school with bytownboy, he was in my first year class). I love being able to work with people, help them lead a better life, feel better, be able to do more, move better. And I love that my clients appreiciate me, I have the best group of clients an RMT could possibly want. I hate the paper work, I hate the taxes, I really don't like being self employed, It feels like the government bends you over the table and takes all it can, and then a little more cuz you had the audacity to try and be your own boss.

3. What is your favourite book or series? Why? I would have to say The Dark Jewels Trilogy by Anne Bishop. It is a fantasy series, about a very strong woman who is powerful, yet still has her weaknesses and insecurities, but over comes them. It is funny at times, and yet dark, it is not a young adult series by any stretch, as there are some quite graphic scenes, but they are well handled. Well written, and for an in depth series, a very easy read.

4. What is something about your partner that always makes you happy?

R is always concerned about me, and always willing to do what ever I want or need, I hope I am able to do the same for him. He makes me laugh, all the time, and he takes me as I am, with all my baggage, and trials, and issues, and keeps going with the flow. He has been put through more in being with me, and learned about the darker side of life, and is still with me, and no plans to run screaming for the hills. I couldn't as for a better man.

5. How would I best go about hinting to R to have a "Dr. Horrible Singalong Blog" movie night, and invite me & Ox? *grin*I
I think this could be arranged, and would be a wonderful treat to have you here for an evening, I think this needs to be arranged, and we need to work on the boys to get it happening.... I know R will be happy to have you here, just need to figure Ox out :) what is your schedule like for the next weekend or two? any time?

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1) What made you decide to become an RMT?
I was originally in school to become a lawyer. Finished my undergrad degree, but hated the idea of pushing papers all day. So I worked, and did some soul searching, and realized that healing was where I wanted to be, was my original plan, but my math wasn't even close to being good enough for med school. I wanted to do something that would be fairly main stream so I wouldn't have to market too much. I had been told when I was younger I had good hands. so I looked into it, and went back to high school to get the 2 science classes I needed to get into the school I wanted. And I've never looked back.

2) Besides your knitting, do you have any other hobbies? I read, and read and read, lots of reading. And I have recently taken up spinning, I hope one day to be able to buy a wheel, but for now using a drop spindle. I also crochet.

3) What is your favourite meal? Hmmmmmm I like food, I love a good steak, but I would think my absolute favourite would be a really good fettucinni.

4) I have to ask, what was your first impression of that crazy man you married whom we all adore! He made me laugh, and laugh. Our first date was wandering around down down. He was so sweet, and open, and giving, and did I mention he made me laugh?

5) Funny or Drama? Probably Drama, I like to laugh, but something that can make me bawl my eyes out and touches me will make me remember it more.

So i haven't posted in forever! pluggin through my french classes. I am getting pronouciations I have never gotten, and some grammar I had long forgot, so it is of benefit. However, I think next term, I will go get myself tested, and see what level I really should be at, because the class isn't challenging me the way I think it should. I understand what the teacher says, my vocabulary isn't 0, and I seemed to understand how verbs are conjucated. But this is a good refresher! There are a couple people in the class who this is the perfect level for, and that is wonderful, just have to get the 2 or 3 of us who are a little more advanced to not push the teacher so hard to move forward, or we will leave the others behind, not so cool when you pay for the class.

One of the things the teacher wants us to do is learn the lyrics to this song. A cute uplifting song. And not too hard. Enjoy!

tis a good time of year to reflect. It definitely has not been an easy year. There have been a lot of ups and downs.

Start with the down. First time I have had to call the police, not so good, and a realization, that things are out of my control, and generally out of control. Trips to the hospital, to deal with suicide tendancies, not mine, and not under my control, neither the need for the hospital, nor the outcome. Realizations that parents aren't infalliable. They have their own faults, not that I didn't know this before, but hit home when I got slapped in the face with it. Realization that there is very little I can control, this is both bad and good. it is a step in the right direction.

Everyone has many choices to make in life. Every day is full of choices. You can choose to be happy, choose to worry, choose to pick up the drugs, alcohol, food, what ever it is. I can choose to have that a part of my life, or not. And I choose no.

On the eve of this day, I am choosing me, and GBC. I am choosing to focus on me and us. I am choosing to be supportive of him, and of me. I have risen above my childhood. I have not become what I was bred to be. I am not reliant on my mother. I have completed 2 courses of school, I have a job I love, I have amazing friends. I am not perfect, I only strive to be better every day.

I am sloughin off the negativity. I want to see the world through rose coloured glasses, and purple, and blue, and orange, and every colour imaginable. I want to be a happy person. I want to walk away from an experience and be happy for it. Even if I don't want to do it again, I want to see the positive, and know that even though it isn't for me, that it may be for some, and see the good in that.

I am striving to be stronger for my family, who is now me and GBC. He chose me, I chose him.

They say that children grow up and become who they are based on nurture or nature. I believe that, but sometimes kids grow up and because of their nurture or nature they choose to rebel against that and be who they want because they believe their nurture or nature doesn't fit with who they really are. And that is where I fit in. I am ME. I am not my mother, my brother, nor my father. I am ME! I will do what I feel is right, and be me, postive, and happy, and one who looks after herself so she can look after the one she loves... GBC!

Happy Bday to me

I have been chewing on a few things for the last week or so. No surprise there really.

I had a conversation with an aunt about the whole situation that has been going on in my little world. She said to me, that I shouldn't feel guilty, and I told her it was inevitable I was going to feel guilty when things finally hit the fan, things are taken out of everyone's control, and people are no longer with us.

She said to me, Guilt is something that is felt when someone wants to feel more important than they really are. Now I am paraphrasing, but that is the gist of it. I also know that this is a very broad generalization, and some will argue with it. And that's okay.

Here is where I am going with this. Over the last week, I have thought alot about events that transpired to get my family to where they are right now. Nasty incident when my brother was 12, father being kicked out, father coming out, mother being overbearing, protective to a fault, brother getting into drugs and petty or not so petty crime. Looking back, I don't think that there is any decision or action I made that could have or did change the course of events. I stayed clean, stayed relatively out of trouble, and carried on with my life despite the whirlwind around me.

I am not trying to say I am better than anyone, in fact just the opposite. I am working on letting go of guilt. Guilt that I did anything wrong, or that any of my actions could have made a change, or that my choices will make a change in the long run. My actions may very well make changes, but the feeling of guilt, should not enter into those choices, and actions.

There may be hard feelings, there may be anger, tears, laughter and joy. But in the grand scheme of things does anyone benefit from guilt? When I feel guilty, I tend to want people to tell me that everything is okay, and I really shouldn't feel guilty, and then I go along my merry way to my own little pity party, which is often annoying to those around me.

Anger can be dealt with, forgiveness given. Joy can be shared, tears can release pent up emotions. But guilt for me serves no purpose for me than to think that I am or was an integral part of the negative outcome of some event or action, and allows me to carry that like my own personal cross to bear. If I was an integral part of a negative outcome, me feeling guilty is going to do nothing. Guilt will never be part of a solution, in my mind and for me, guilt only prolongs the healing. Guilt leads me to try to solve things to make me feel better, it is an internal struggle for a solution rather than an external one whether or not the solution benefits everyone, guilt makes me think of me. How bad I feel.

So I am not going to feel guilty for following my conscience. I am not going to feel guilty for doing what I can and failing. I cannot control other people's actions, I can only do what I can and let the universe sort it out in the end.

So this is my promise to me, to try to let go of the guilt that comes along with living in this world, and to not feel guilty when I slip :)

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